Morning sickness; if only it were limited to the morning.

Bukan sahaja breakfast, malahan lunch, tea time and dinner pun susah nak decide nak makan apa. I usually go for nasi.. Nasi for life! Perut melayu sejati! Tapi sekarang tak lalu nak makan nasi especially malam. Kadang-kadang cuma makan roti and sup. Ini bukan kebiasaan.

Rasanya pregnancy kali ni tekak agak mengada.

During first pregnancy, memang ada sickness especially first timer.. kalau takde sickness pun rasa-rasa mcm ada. It started when I was about to detect the pregnancy. Rasanya sampai 4 bulan jugak baru disappear dan digantikan dengan uncomfortable symptom yang lain.


Second pregnancy; tak ada sickness. Selera makan saya hebat. Resulting to 20kg gained throughout the pregnancy. Mungkin ada pening sikit2, tapi jauh lebih mild berbanding first pregnancy.


Third pregnancy (abortion); pun langsung tidak ada sickness. Berkemungkinan the pregnancy has ended at 6weeks jadi tidak ada apa2 pregnancy symptom yang dialami.


Fourth pregnancy; I wish I have pregnancy sickness. Not having the sickness makes me worry.

"Feeling sick is a good sign that your pregnancy hormone levels are high. On the other hand, not having morning sickness isn't necessarily a bad sign."

http://www.babycentre.co.uk/x1049054/is-it-true-that-morning-sickness-is-a-sign-of-a-healthy-pregnancy#ixzz3THlK2Cyk


The earlier weeks, my sickness was very mild. Only at week 8 until now, 12w - ada masa rasa nak baring dan tak perlu buat / fikir apa-apa. Dia punya pening menikam-nikam jiwa dan kepala.

Coping with the sickness is tough especially if you're having something important to do. And we, working mother always have something or many important things to do be it at work or home. Selalunya my morning sickness tidak pula start pada waktu pagi, so sebelum lapa gile cepat2 makan at least sekeping roti. Dan kebiasaannya sekeping roti adalah tidak cukup ha ha ha
Sampai office atau on the way ke office kena ambil heavy breakfast. Pukul 12 lapa balik, jadi cepat-cepat lunch. Pukul 4 lapa lagi.... begitulah seterusnya. Lapar tapi tak tau tekak nak makan apa. Itu adalah stressful.

Yang paling tak best bila masa tidur perut lapar (insert icon marah disini). Sampai termimpi dah pergi makan.

We know that is difficult to overcome the morning sickness completely. Ada orang makan asam, ok.. But I'm not a fan of asam. Air limau asam boi pun boleh.. Ada yang alas perut dengan biskut in between meals, but I need the real heavy meal yang kena dengan tekak! :)

Ada banyak remedies to overcome pregnancy sickness. I read a lot but the only thing that I commonly do is - stuff your stomach with food ;p I'm just going to enjoy this temporary process, entah bila dapat experience macam ni lagi .... :)

My Blessing No 4

October last year, I had a miscarriage. It did not take a long time before my first period after miscarriage to occur. Early December, I got my period and I was happy because everything seems normal. Then, my period was overdue in Jan. At first, I was worried kalau-kalau period masih belum regular. Hampir 10 hari overdue, barulah buat pregnancy test.

Tahniah, anda pregnant (sekali lagi).


Mestilah happy. Siapa kisah pasal tak ready. Since kali ni ada tarikh period lagi senang hati.


This time I plan untuk tunggu sampai 8-9 weeks before I make appointment for an ultrasound (US). You know the feeling when you look at empty sac, no fetal echo seen, no heartbeat.. It can be very frustrating (it's normal that these cannot be seen at 5-6 weeks of pregnancy). Kalau boleh nak pergi scan dan nampak baby, more promising.

Unfortunately, hari Selasa lepas I found brown spot in the morning and light red spot sebelah petang. Allah. Sedih betul. Maka, teruslah ke Emergency O&G HUKM untuk check. The doctor saw sedikit bleeding but not active bleeding. And transvaginal scan showed I'm 5w0d pregnant. Kalau mengikut kiraan dah 6w4d. This nearly 2 weeks off seems A LOT to me. The only thing we were able to see adalah sac and yolk sac. Setidak-tidaknya kalini nampak yolk sac.

Spotting at early pregnancy can be possibly caused by implantation bleeding, sign of miscarriage atau molar pregnancy (rare). Until miscarriage is confirmed then only we can tell is not an implantation bleeding or others. I think I'm not worried so much on the spotting alone selagi tidak ada bleeding. But the combination of spotting (for 3 days now) AND 2 weeks off of sac measurement = memang menyesakkan dada.

Jadi harini, bagi menyelesaikan persoalan yang bermain di dalam minda, mengurangkan kesesakan di dalam dada, kesusahan di dalam hati - I read some references online.


Went for an ultrasound at 7 weeks and it showed I'm only 5 weeks. Is this possible?

During my first two pregnancies, the measurements were always tally with EDD calculation so I searched for similar case like mine and try to find out the possibilities. Ada ramai yang experience ultrasound (US) giving different measurement at early stage of pregnancy, banyak juga yang the pregnancy will still carry on instead of miscarriage (THERE'S A HOPE!).

• EDD calculation is based on average or what is normal, maybe, I may not be measuring in what they consider within the normal range.
• It could have to do with my ovulation being a little off. The period that I initially thought was normal, maybe the cycle is still crazy after the miscarriage. Maybe my cycle is not 28 days but longer that that. The possibility that I had ovulated 2 weeks later than I thought.
• Babies are growing at different rate in (or even outside) the womb. Maybe the baby is a little slower to develop, not every baby is cookie cutter in size so that could have a lot to do with it.
• Our bodies work in mysterious ways so it could be that the size is making slightly out.
• Although US showing I'm only 5 weeks but it shows a regular pregnancy at week 5 - normal sac and yolk sac is there. No expectation to see the heartbeat until later weeks.

I hope and pray that this will end up with a healthy baby (girl)! Amin. And at the same time preparing myself for the worst.

Aftermath: My Blessing No 3

Nearly a week ago, I was 7-8 weeks pregnant. It was relatively an easy pregnancy for me, no sickness and I enjoyed All-you-can-eat moment. And then, I had a miscarriage.

Last Thursday, Prof Hashim has confirmed that the sac has collapsed. For such case, there are a few possible workarounds includes medical management or a brief surgery known as D&C.

Prof sempat tanya kalau I ada makan since last night, malangnya (atau tidak malang sebenarnya) baru je lepas lunch masa otw ke hospital. Prof kata, kalau x makan lagi boleh buat D&C harini. Before D&C procedure nak kena puasa semalaman. Memandangkan condition saya masih okay, Prof suggest untuk naturally remove the sac/baby. So I was prescribed with Misoprostol to be orally taken within 5 days. Tapi risau jugak selepas ambil ubat kalau-kalau masih perlu buat D&C <insert icon pejam mata kuat-kuat here>

Day 1: Nervous jugak nak ambil ubat ni. Entah macamana sakit la nanti lepas makan. When I asked 'Macam period pain ke Prof?'. He replied 'Slightly more'

glup! 

Day 1 seems fine, bleeding masih normal. Cuma badan mula rasa sakit2 macam nak demam.

Day 2: Masih lagi bleeding yang normal pada awal paginya. Tapi badan makin aching, rasanya selepas bersalin pun tak rasa macam ni. I called kakak tukang urut, mujur dia dapat datang hari yang sama. Lepas urut badan rasa segar sikit and bleeding makin banyak. Lepas urut, I continue with tuam perut. I think that really helps, lebih lancar proses pengeluaran darah tersebut, I guess.

Day 3: Okay. Harini badan rasa sangat tak sihat. Tak tahu lah nak describe macamana, rasa nak demam pun ada. Lebih banyak bleeding and start keluar ketulan. That was a good sign. Tapi setiap kali nak keluar tu, perut bukan main cramp. At times rasa macam contraction. Tuam lagi. Dan kemudian duduk dalam toilet cuba teran. That helps as well. Masa teran barulah ketulan2 keluar. The whole day memang rasa tak sihat.

Day 4: Alhamdulillah I felt much better. Bleeding masih banyak tapi kurang pekat. Body was no longer aching. Masih teruskan tuam perut. Until one time I went to poo-poo, a big 'thing' came out and lepas tu betul2 lega. It was a relief and sad at the same time.

Day 5: Today. Pesan Prof, dah hari ke-5 pergi emergency scan untuk tengok kalau masih ada yang tertinggal.

Awal pagi tadi kami ke O&G Emergency HUKM. There are a few assessment yang diorang akan buat untuk pastikan it's a complete miscarriage.

1. Speculum test (excuse my term) untuk tengok kalau masih ada active bleeding.

2. Ultrasound scan to see the womb condition to see if any remnants of the pregnancy remain in the uterus.

3. Dan kalau ultrasound scan is unable to show clearer view, doctor will perform transvaginal scan.

For my case, there was no active bleeding, rahim dah tertutup/bercantum - it shows a straight line indicates no more sac in there. Bila buat VE, jalan di pangkal cervix pun dah tutup. Rupanya, 'jalan' terbuka semasa keguguran. 

I also had a complete miscarriage, which meant that I didn’t have to schedule a D&C. There were no baby bits left behind that needed scraping out.

Alhamdulillah.

While staring at the ultrasound of my empty uterus was sad and frustrating, my pregnancy has ended, no more babymoon - it also meant that my body was that much closer to “back to normal" and we're ready to Rock&Roll and keep trying! 

Bertenang.. Bertenang... Mommy ni penyabar orangnya ;p

I just hope I can quickly recover physically and emotionally.

My Blessing No 3

I've been waiting to write about my blessing no 3 since many weeks ago. I didn't have a chance until today. But the story that I intend to write at the first place has changed.

Sejak bersalinkan Umar, my menses didn't return. In a way, it's good for family planning :) tapi since dah more than a year, maybe we should be more cautious if we're not yet ready. Speaking about readiness, when can we be really ready? Bila orang tanya bila nak tambah, common answer 'biarlah dulu' sambil senyum kambing. Hehehe Tapi dalam hati, ada baby pun best. Dan bila terfikir bestnya ada baby, terfikir pulak commitment, energy, resources, time, financial yang kita currently ada to offer to that new baby. Buat kita ada second thought. Okay, takde dulu pun xpe. Kebiasaanya akan berbolak-balik, nak - tak nak, nampak baby rasa nak, bila badan penat anak2 buat hal, rasa tak jadi lah nak ;p

Until, the pregnancy test indicates double line, means positive, means you're pregnant, means ready or not here I come!

And the only feeling we have at that time is 'Excitement'. We wont care about readiness anymore :)

Hujung bulan 8, I always thought about being pregnant. I dont have sickness or nauseous yet and my period is due for 1 year and 7 months, so no indication at all. It's just I noticed I started to have a nice round belly and sometimes it's hard. Walaupun antara kemungkinan yang menyebabkan itu berlaku adalah hasil memakan tanpa henti rendang, lemang, nasi himpit masa hari raya, tapi macam ada instinct yang mungkin there's something inside.

I kept on delaying to check. On 4th September, i bought the pregnancy stick, went in to toilet, peed on it and the double lines were quickly appear. Red and clear.

Mulut terlopong. Kemudian, tergelak. Okay, ada nangis kegembiraan sikit. Overwhelmed.

I remember masa Amir, I did the test 3 days before period due, negative. And repeat a day before period due, positive but the line was not that clear.

Jadi agak-gaknya lines yg clear macamni dah berapa minggu lah gamaknya. That night, we went to clinic to scan. It was still very small, doctor assumed it was still 3-4 weeks. I was glad I detected that early so I wont miss to consume supplement required for early pregnancy :) So, this is it.. A mother of two and pregnant with the 3rd one. I am one happy mother.

The following week, 10th Sep I went for antenatal checkup at KKIA Batu 9, Cheras. The plan was first and 2nd trimester just pergi checkup at KKIA then only in my 3rd, we'll go and see my gynae at UKMSC. Cost-efficient.

During the checkup, doc has confirmed I was 4 weeks pregnant. We can't see any fetal echo just yet. I got another appointment one month later, 15 Oct.

I always curious how many weeks is my blessing no 3 already. 3 weeks after the last checkup, I went to a clinic because I was suffering from hemarroid. Sambil menyelam minum air, I request untuk buat scan sekali. The sac has grown, no fetal echo seen yet and the size was 6w0d. Doc cakap maybe memang masih kecil, it's normal to not see the fetus/heartbeat. 

Frankly, I was worried. Last 3 weeks, I was 4 weeks pregnant. But you know, I dont have last menstrual date jadi nothing can verify the most accurate week. Doc suggest I scan semula another week.

I walked to my car and .. burst. My previous pregnancies shown accurate week each week throughout the 9 months. We can see Amir's heartbeat at week 6, the size was 0.57cm. Through readings, there are cases they failed to see the baby at week 6 but weeks later they finally see the heartbeat. That helps to soothe me.

I contacted Prof Hashim, my gynae tru SMS, explained to him about situation amd asked if I can see him the next day. Within minutes, he replied 'Ok, pagi'

Such a relief. 

It took me quite awhile to drive home to pickup kids. It almost maghrib so I stopped at nearby surau. When I almost reach the babysitter house I got a call from my aunt, my uncle was nazak. And soon after that, we learnt that he has passed away. The very next morning we went back to my hometown and reschedule my appointment.

2 days after I went for last scan, 30th September, Prof Hashim has confirmed I am 6 weeks pregnant, the sac looks fine and he can actually see the baby still very small which I can't barely see it ;p

Prof presribed me with Duphaston, hope akan membantu kuatkan rahim. And will see Prof again in two weeks time - mommy can't wait to see your heartbeat!

The week after, which is last Monday. Umar was admitted to KPJ Kajang due to bronchopneumonia. Luckily nothing s serious, he can be discharged three days after. Wednesday morning, 8th October, I found blood spot. Hati runtuh. Since Ami was around and boleh babysit our kids, I took cab to Emergency Hosp Kajang.

At the general emergency department, they scan and one of the doctors said it's too small for 6-7 weeks but he saw the heartbeat. Senang hati mommy. Later, they brought me to klinik O&G. *At HUKM, you can go directly go to emergency O&G. Lebih mudah.

Di Klinik O&G the checked and confirmed no active bleeding. Lagi senang hati. Kemudian, buat transvaginal ultrasound so we can get more accurate reading.

And it shows, the pregnancy was 6w0d and no heartbeat at all. Sebahagian hati runtuh lagi. Since kes ini cuma blood spot, dan pregnancy baru 5-6 mggu pada mereka, saya disarankan datang seminggu lagi atau bila lebih banyak darah keluar. *kalau mengikut calculation saya; sekiranya sekarang memang saya 6 mggu pregnant adakah maksudnya masa saya buat test awal bulan lepas saya 0-1 week pregnant? Impossible.

Takpelah kita jumpa lagi seminggu. 

Selesai urusan discharge Umar pada haritu, we were finally home. Unpack bags, kemas rumah sikit2. I noticed makin bleeding. They were not spots anymore. Get an appointment with Prof Hashim for the next day.

Since dah cuti 2 hari sebab jaga Umar, Khamis pagi, 9th October I went to conduct my lecture, buat class ararngement for Friday (today) and the following week in case I'll be on medical leave. I rushed to do a number of things before 1pm, kalau boleh nak jumpa Prof seawal pukul 2pm. Perut makin cramp and I was still bleeding. Around 1-ish baru betul2 setel, packed my bags and ready to go. But I just can't. I know I wont have the baby. Stucked at my desk.  I cried. I hold back my feelings for too long. Tapi nak buat macamana kan, itulah dia yang berlaku. Takpelah nangis kejap, jap lagi berhenti and I'll continue walking.

Once done, drove myself to UKMSC.

Nearly 3pm, baru dapat jumpa Prof. Bila scan, it's confirmed the sac has collapsed. Prof suggest makan ubat untuk jatuhkan sac, mungkin tak perlu buat D&C. Next week pergi scan untuk confirm if the womb is clear. Okay Prof! I expected this to happen, sedih tapi xpelah.

Kemudian I sat near to pharmacy counter. They called my name and explained how to take the medication. The moment he passed the medication to me, I broke down again. Cemas kejap pharmacist tu, sian dia. Hahaha

I walked out but could not walk far. I sat again at the bench outside clinic, cover my face with my tudung and here we go clearing lungs and tears again. It's official that I had a miscarriage.

Allah knows better. He has a better plan for us. I told Amir last night that there's no more baby in my tummy. He hugged mommy and sambung main hehehe

The fact that my child is waiting for me in Jannah, the happiness that Allah lend to us for the past month, the feeling of waking up every morning with reasons - i'm expecting a baby, will see him/her soon in 7 months :- Ini semua pun rezeki. After all, I'm sincerely grateful atas apa yang berlaku. Certain things we have to let go while many others we still have the chance to keep.

First ultrasound to confirm pregnancy, 3-4 weeks.

The last seen sac at 6 weeks.

I found this since my first pregnancy, such a beautiful quote.

Mom's Care Baby Carnival Sale fr 12 June to 16 June

Ya, it's another sale by Moms care tehehe

Okay, kalini banyak baju pulak. Toys, breastfeeding accecories, bags, bedding set, storage box pun ada. Besar sikit dari haritu.

The sale is happening at Atrium, Ikano Power Centre in front of Cold storage.

Let's cekidout

Boy's tshirt for only RM15. Size up to 36 months.

RM10 ja! Tapi ada defect sikit, they did mentioned.

Got to get a new cooler bag, current punya ni zip dia rosak (justify... Jgn tak justify)

Amir's favorite.. RM25, okay jalannn!

Baby's clothing and stuffs

I think this is cute, tapi tak ambil..

READ: RM12. Tapi size besar ada yg RM15

Romper, 3 pcs for RM20. Memang kena sapuu...

Gift set for RM50.

Baby Products Clearance Sale - Mom's Care fr 29 May to 9 June

Up to 50% off for various brands like avent, little bean, bright stars, vtech, growin' up, fabulous mam (nursing bra n other breastfeeding necessity) among others.

At bargain corner, G floor, rainforest.

Clothing n basic barang2 baby memang banyak dan semua ada discount.

Of all items yang ada kat sini, I was lucky that I found these...

Little bean walker for only 120 from 249.9. This is for Umar. I plan nak beli walker masa sale Childhood Basic Marketing di CMC giant tapi I message diorang tanya when is the exact date sebab selalunya buat in June, they replied bulan 12 nnt baru buat heuheu Masatu mungkin Umar dah walk sendiri.

Alhamdulillah jumpa pulak kat sale momscare ni and I think harga after discount pun sama!

Tak banyak yang ada, tadi cuma ada 2 walker and the rest are bouncer. And walker yg lagi satu tu color pink. So i sapu both walkers yang appropriate for boy - 1 for Umar and the other one for my nephew, Zareef.

Other than this, i bought bottle warmer on behalf of my friend. Pun deal yang bagus jugak... 

Rm69.90

So terpaksa lah I susahkan sales assistant untuk hantar barang ke parking because I was alone Tehehehe

Thank u adik2!

Breastfeeding with comfort and joy

Tajuk mcm nak tulis best practice pasal breastfeeding kan.. Padahal, tidak.

Cuma nak record experience breastfeed umar compare to Amir, mana yang baik dijadikan teladan.

Basically, 1st and 2nd kid ni situasi nya almost similar. Amir and Umar masa mula2 susah nak latch. My assumption was, patutnya baby akan start suck thumb as a practice to suck nipple masa 38 weeks - dah dua-dua tak menyempat nak keluar masa 37 and 36 week respectively. Dan Amir & Umar ni baby jaundice, memang tidur je kerja dia. By the time bangun perut agaknya dah lapar, mula2 kan susu sikit so mereka seperti frustrated bila suck tp tak banyak dapat hasil. My assumption lah...

Biasa kita dengar orang pesan, direct breastfeed baby especially masa mula-mula. Masa Amir memang most of the time direct, takut nak bagi botol nanti baby confuse etc. lesson learned, mungkin kebetulan case amir bila mommy masuk kerja dia refuse bottle causing inconvenience pada babysitter so this time I plan untuk biasa kan aja Umar dengan bottle. Mungkin I tak pernah experience baby yg confuse teat menyebabkan mereka tak nak nipple instead prefer bottle - tapi I percaya bahawa baby jugak mempunyai taste yg tinggi - nothing beats mom's teat teeheee

So masa Umar ni awal-awal lagi I dah start pam, bukan nak buat stock pun tapi Umar pun asyik tidur and my intention to stimulate milk production. Hasil express tu I guna masa 'mommy seriously needs a break!' Pantang sendiri, macam-macam nak buat. Sampai petang dah penat, bila malam apetah lagi. So it's time for baba to take turn - it's their bonding time too. Bila minum dari bottle Umar cepat kenyang and cepat setel down. Syukur jugak sebab I dah start pump dr awal walaupun ada yang say No to me, and told me to feed him directly - Umar was admitted to hosp due to jaundice and mommy tak boleh stay, so I dah ada ready stock untuk tinggalkan di hosp. I personally think, buat aje lah stock dari awal manatau kita pun ada waktu tak sihat sekurang2 nya kita boleh lagi supply milk for baby.

Actually i bukan lah jenis yang produce susu bila pam boleh dapat berbotol-botol. Masa Amir dulu hampir seminggu baru susu betul-betul pekat, masa hari ke-3, bila pam susu (sbb baba nak bawak amir check jaundice) kedua-dua belah dapat 20ml saja. Sekali hadap aja tu. i noticed ada jugak ibu yg dah start produce susu yg banyak walaupun baru berapa hari. It's okay lain padang lain belalangnya. So masa Umar, bila perasan dia dah start kuning2 I pun start makan lobak putih. The next day memang susu pekat dan banyak, lebih awal berbanding masa Amir. Selain tu I consume ESP and Alfafa as well as Horlicks, cakaplah apa saja yg possibly membantu untuk increase susu, semuanya cuba. I'm happy with my production, again tidaklah berbotol-botol sekali pam, I tidak perlukan freezer lagi sebab fridge kat rumah masih mampu untuk store. Tapi cukup buat umar. I start buat stock for Umar mungkin kurang dari sebulan sebelum mula masuk kerja. Bukan tak pam, I regularly pump tp for reasons that I mentioned earlier, hasil pump tu I guna untuk kegunaan seharian - contohnya harini dapat 3 botol esoknya guna 2 botol. Risau pada mulanya but I just keep going, buat mana yg termampu dan tidak stress sangat pasal nak buat stock. 

Pendirian masing2, ada yang kata begini begitu.. Ada yang terlalu mengangkat tinggi cara dia breastfeed anaknya sampaikan cara orang lain tidak betul. Ada yang risau sangat terpaksa campur now I cannot say that I exclusively bf my baby - apa yang kita nak sebenarnya.. Title 'fully breastfeed', 'exclusively breastfeed' atau niat ikhlas nak susu kan anak kita sendiri. Cuma ada segelintir yang terlalu obsess dengan beeastfeeding ni, walhal orang lain pun breastfeed jugak. Actually, i've got the utmost respect for mothers whom exclusively breastfeed their children. Memang bukan kerja mudah. Cuma bila ada yang suka condemn cara orang lain, tu yang tak best tu...

Anyway, the never ending story hehehe

Actually I tak pandai susu kan baby sambil baring especially besar-besar Umar. Masa Amir dulu, i got up and duduk kat sofa but it was very tiring. Sakit badan esp kalau salah duduk ka. So kalini I cuba lah improve yang itu, so i cari appropriate chair for nursing. Cari punya cari, berkenang dengan Poang Armchair Ikea - yang boleh rocking.

Sangat selesa. Dia ikut postur badan kita bila duduk. Banyak kali tertidur kat kerusi bila susu kan umar, kadang-kadang Ami databg kejut. Ada sekali Amir datang kejut, it was 4 o'clock in the morning. Amir kejutkan 'mommy bangun lah.. Amir dah bangun ni' hehehehe Maksudnya cukup selesa lah untuk terlelap atas kerusi tu dan tidak menyebabkan badan sakit. Tak sabar nak tunggu Umar besar sikit, boleh bf sambil tidur, pandai-pandailah engkau cari sendiri ye nak. 

In order to keep my pumping schedule in place, all the machines is always in ready mode. So, kat office i pakai double pumping and kat rumah single sbb selalunya pump masa susu kan umar. Dan satu lagi manual so bila kat luar senang nak pump xperlu cari power source. Fyi, the only pump that I owned is the manual pump Teeheee yang lain semua loan, memandangkan mereka tidak lagi memerlukan machine itu buat sementara. For hygienic purposes, pakailah aksesori sendiri, share machine saja. I paling suka spectra dwi, double. Thanks, Zaila! 

In summary, dlm hal breastfeed ni ikutlah keselesaan masing-masing. We should enjoy the moment not to put much pressure on yourself. Ada orang yang unfortunate, nature of work tak macam kita yang boleh pump selang 3 jam. Dan cuba tidak compare hasil kita dengan hasil orang lain, nama pun rezeki. 

So, be happy! :)

Amir & Umar Senyum + Umbilical Hernia

 Bukan senang nak ada peluang / mood nak write entry. So, kita sekali kan lah semua cerita yang terlintas  hendak ditulis.

Ini Amir masa kecil..

Terkejar-kejar mommy nak capture gambar ni..

One of the best pic yang Amir tengah smile. Behind the scene, berpeluh-peluh nak buat Amir senyum.

Tapi usaha tu mmg berbaloi sbb lepas pada gambar2 ini, setahun jugak mommy tggu Amir senyum nak ambil gambar kerana most of your pic adalah seperti di bawah...

Masam.

Lain pulak peel adik Amir. Payong mommy ni memang senang senyum. Mommy cakap-cakap sikit je dia senyum

Paling suka bila Payong senyum, mata dia sepet.

Tapi Amir, menjelang usia 2 tahun, dah faham instruction, bila suruh senyum masa ambil gambar, bukan main dia senyum.. Skrg xpayah suruh dia dah tau kena senyum when the camera s ready

Amir sekarang bukan main suka pegang / pangku Umar. Dan setiap kali pegang dia suruh ambil gambar

Sampai tergolek Umar...

Kadang-kadang mengamuk jugak so kecik tu..

Amir pulak kata "ambil picture banyak-banyak"

Seronok tengok peel masing-masing especially Amir yg protective, orang nak pinjam adik dia pun marah.

Pagi-pagi bangun tidur, Amir akan sibuk panggil Umar - nnt dia kata 'comel-comel budak tu!' Hahaha 

It's my prayer their love will keep growing and last forever.

The boys.

Last Saturday, checkup n injection for Umar. To my surprise Umar has gained 1kg from last month. Panjang nye tak bertambah, melebar aje agaknya. Now berat Umar dah 6.4kg - maybe normal for 3 months old baby - berat Umar masa lahir was just 2.4kg, so I'm one happy mommy.

0-3 months

Speaking about Umar, masa betul-betul habis pantang, I noticed pusat dia macam terkeluar. Bila tekan ada bunyi 'blup'. Huhuhu Bila tanya doctor, he assumed it was umbilical hernia - dgr hernia ja mak takut ok. Umbilical hernia is 

acongenital malformation of the umbilicus. Ada yg tanya ko tak tuam ke etc, according to dr ni mmg so called defect bukanlah sbb tak tuam. In fact dr kata ini adalah common among babies, kebanyakkan case mcm ni akan disappear sendiri. Unless selepas satu tahun still ada barulah doc akan advise further - solution nya maybe operation. Bila tanya dr what we can do for now, doc kata dulu orang tua suruh letak duit syiling atas pusat tu Tehehehe

Gelak juga tp kami buat jugak, ambil syiling then selotep atas pusat ;p Lama- lama dah malas nak buat. Tapi, masa Umar umur 2 bulan setengah pusat umar looks nornal! Alhamdulillah. Honestly risau tp bila jumpa doctor 'ni normal ni, kalau anak 5 sorang mesti kena' hehe

Lagipun Umar masa baby memang suka meneran, lagilah terkeluar pusat tu.

Itulah cerita si payong mommy, masa lepas lahir, bila paeds check thoroughly sbb dia prem baby, doctor found something - a tiny hole atas sikit dari anus, they suspect spine defect. Allahuakbar, risau betul. And we didnt share much with others and pray hard takda apa2 yg major. I saw the hole too, disebabkan umar mmg halus sgt masatu so that hole visible jugaklah. Until senior paed took a 2nd look and she said it's nothing. Phew. And I think until now everything seems normal.

And my Intan, Amir, makin beso makin banyak akal. Dah pandai mintak toys, pantang jumpa. Selalunya baba lah yg kena and everytime i see it i akan membebel. So the next time dia beli, dia pesan dgn baba 'jgn show kat mommy, nnt mommy marah'

HELLO.... Baba pun membebel and most of the time kitaorg membebel sama-sama. Dan Amir buat muka tak fhm je sambil explore his new toy.

Bila orang marah nnt dia kata 'amir shayang mommy'

Aduhai, dah habis idea nak trick dia.

Ok it's sleeping time, not that i'm going to bed now tp Amir nak tidur memang ada je hal dia.. Heuheu

3 months old Payong!

Payong = Umar Hidayat Syah

Pejam celik pejam celik dah 3 bulan si Umar ni. Pejam celik pejam celik dah 3 bulan mommy tak kurus lagi nih!

Bak kata baba dia, Umar ni ada calming effect. He himself enjoy mandikan Umar, rileks aja.. Agak2 air tu sejuk sangat nnt barula dia berbunyi sikit.

Terjaga waktu malam pun not a big issue for mommy, Umar mmg dah ada jadual dia sendiri. Pukul 12, 3-4 then 5-6 am. Pukul 7 dia jaga, mommy or selalunya baba akan mandi kan dia before we leave for work n tinggalkan Umar di nursery. Mandikan anak ni kalau boleh I tak mau we all skip, it's bonding time. Mujur Umar tak banyak bunyi kalau mandi pagi, kalau abang dia... Memang lambat le baba ke office. Nak tgk tv la.. Lepas habis cerita kat tv la.. Tgk youtube la.. Nanti dulu la, amir penat cannot walk..

Since 2 and half months, Umar dah pandai senyum bila di agah. Now every morning bila bangun dia mmg good mood habis. Orang ajak dia pergi mandi je, tersengih2 dia. Lepas siap mandi, for sure akan tidur. Duduk dalam car seat ke nursery pun Umar senyap aja. Alahai.... Sedih rasa nak tinggalkan kat nursery. But Alhamdulillah, Umar is in good hands kat nursery. Kawan-kawan pun ramai.

Amir still dengan babysitter. Otw balik kerja i ambil Umar then Amir. Selalunya bila masuk rumah je Amir akan cari Umar, "Umar look Amir ada ni..." I really really love seeing this. I want my children close to each other, talk as much as they want and share things. I percaya yg macamana we treat Amir, macam tu jugaklah Amir akan treat Umar. And I want Amir to love his little brother as much as I love them both. Kerana ini lah yang kami ada - baba, mommy, amir and umar.

Look, Amir loves u so much. Nanti Umar sayang Amir macam tu jugak ye..

P/s: jangan ketawakan sleeping bag umar color pink. I bought it from Ikea, entah kenapa ada yang color hijau, design lebih kurang - harganya 89. Tapi yang pink ni 49 je. So.... Cost-efficiency!!

Ceritanya I terfikir nak belikan Umar sleeping bag sbb dia selalunya macam sejuk je malam-malam. Ada masa ada bunyi phlegm di saluran nafas ke mulut. So semalam first time pakai sleeping bag, kalau selimut tu akan bergerak kan, mommy yang terkejut terjaga pukul 4 pagi, kenapa lah Umar tak kejutkan mommy? Rupanya lena betul Umar tidur :) alhamdulillah hope payong mommy tak sejuk-sejuk lagi ye.

Mother's day is just around the corner...

Entah tak tau kenapa macam tak sabar nak celebrate mother's day this time ;p

Mungkin sebab dengar lagu Superwoman by Alicia Keys kat Mix siang tadi..

http://youtu.be/-AphKUK8twg (entah macamana nak embed video kat blogger apps ni)

My sonshine!