Saw the heart

Hari Rabu lepas ada appointment dengan Dr Idris di TTDI.Second appointment, harini nak tengok heartbeat. Ami and I was so excited to come that day. Tapi lunch time Ami bagitau dia kena pergi KLIA, ada kerja. But still can make it before 6 to the clinic.

Malangnya sampai pukul 4.30 Ami ada kat KLIA lagi. So I went back home by cab and dah dekat pukul 5.30 no update from Ami so I terus la pergi klinik. His handphone running out of battery, we can't communicate.

6.15pm, tak nampak lagi bayang Ami. I pulak tengah tunggu turn and sampai la Dr panggil so I went in alone. Tengok heartbeat baby dekat screen.. Well, i have no words to describe. There's our baby, but Ami wasn't there. Sian Ami.

Keluar je dari bilik Dr, Ami tak sampai lagi. Nurse asked me to take urine test. Once I went off from toilet, Ami was sitting there at the bench. Ade la dalam 10 minit lambat.. aaa sian dia. If i knew, I kasi patient lain masuk dulu. His handphone turned off masa nak call I cakap on the way balik so I can budget.

Once I stepped in the car, his phone ada kat carpet bawah seat passenger. Alahai.. sedih tengok. Ami bukan suka mengamuk, tapi kalo dia betul2 marah we can tell how much he s upset about something. We have another appointment next 3 weeks. Hope his works can compromise.

Well, it's going to be 2 months now. Everything is double, nauseas.. headaches.. vomit.. fatigue.. selera!!

Yup, can't wait to see you again small little foetus.