Friday, April 29, 2011

13 September

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1 hari selepas kelahiran Amir.

Prof Hashim kata if nak balik dah boleh discharge, but we decided to stay 1 more night in case ada relative or friend yang nak datang visit before I berpantang di Kuala Pilah.

Malam 13 September, lebih kurang 12.30-1 pagi, Amir asyik menangis. Tengah sibuk memujuk, ada incoming call - no telefon rumah Banglang's in law. I quickly picked up, MIL Banglang call asking for my eldest brother's number. I terus bagi without asking because Amir still crying. Bila Amir dah cool down I terfikir kenapa MIL tanya no fon Bangngah. I terus dialed no Banglang. Lama ringing then someone else answered, his friend. My heart was racing. He did mentioned about my brother was in hospital, he could not tell me anything on the phone and asked me to come to the hospital. I said I can't come and forced him to tell me. But he still not telling me anything.

I told Ami. Risaunya, what could have happened to Banglang. Accident? Robbed? What is it???
At that time I mintak nurse jaga Amir at nursery. I was restless. Rasa risau, nak nangis tapi tak boleh nangis. I called Bangngah. Tapi Kak taty yang answer my call. She just told me Banglang at hospital, Bangngah will take care of the situation. But what is it? At least I tau Banglang ada di hospital. Kak taty told me to be calm and relax, jangan risau.

I totally can't relax. I called parents in law Banglang. His father in law which I called atuk, he keep silent when I asked. He could not say a word. Then he asked to talk to Ami instead. Ami bercakap dengan atuk outside the room for maybe 5 minutes. I started to cry, membayangkan perkara yang mungkin terjadi pada Banglang. When Ami stepped into the room, Ami kata atuk tak cakap apa-apa.

Next I called Kakteh. When she picked up the phone, I heard she s crying. What happened to him? She continues crying. For god sake I need to know, he's my brother! When she calms down, she said Banglang sesak nafas and ada kat hospital. Kakteh akan pergi tengok, so she asked me to relax jangan risau.

Ok.

But that didn't last long. I tertanya-tanya lagi, if it really is kenapa Kakteh menangis-nangis macam tu. I cuba lelap mata tapi tak boleh. I duduk je atas katil sambil holding my phone waiting for any update.

4.30 am, I called my cousin. I bet she knows what happen and I was confident I can convince her to tell me. It took me quite a long time for her to tell me what happen. Bila I tanya apa jadi, she cry.. And cry.. And cry.. And cry.. I know Munira try to tell me but she just can't. Eventually, she said it.. Banglang dah meninggal.

Banglang meninggal due to sesak nafas in his car. By the time police sampai, maybe he was no longer breathing.

Sedih. Tapi I bersyukur sebab bukanlah pekara yang buruk2 berlaku pada Banglang. Cuma dah sampai ajalnya.

Walaupun dalam pantang and baru 3 hari bersalin, tetap I nak pergi ziarah Banglang. Tengok buat kali terakhir. Some people are very concern about my condition. I just don't give a damn. Orang kata pantang tak boleh itu, tak boleh ini.. I rebel. Tak tahu pada siapa.

Ke hari ini, dah 7 bulan setengah I didn't see my brother. Memang takkan jumpa lagi. It was so hard at the beginning. Bila bangun malam susukan Amir, cepat je terlintas di fikiran.. Terbayang-bayang arwah. Even now, bila drive pergi kerja.. Lalu pulak kat tempat2 we used to hang out, masih tebal ingatan terhadap Banglang.

Bila harini terdengar pulak berita kematian my friend, terus teringat Banglang. I'm pretty sure I can imagine how sad it is for my friend's family. Semua macam sekelip mata.

The night before, Banglang came to visit me and Amir. He wore baju melayu putih, well I know it was Raya tapi I saja tegur 'kenapa pakai baju melayu putih ni macam nak pegi kahwin je'
According to his wife, memang tu baju melayu masa kahwin if I'm not mistaken.

So ya..I have that captured in my mind, Banglang dalam baju melayu putih berdiri sambil dukung his child.

Bila I fikir I as his sister, sedih macam ni. How about his wife? Or Bangngah yang sama-sama membesar dengan Banglang? Atau ayah... ? He once said 'Ingatkan ayah mati dulu, rupanya anak ayah'

Ayah memang tak pandai nak tunjuk sayang or sedih, but after my brother passed away. Ayah jadi grumpy. Bila tengok cucu-cucu, anak Banglang. I can tell ayah sangat sedih. Imagine if we have to lose our child. Memang tak terbayang.

Luckily we have family portrait at home, it was taken masa raya 2 tahun lepas. It was Banglang's idea nak ambil gambar family. We have one family photo with my late mother, taken in 1995 before Bangngah sambung study abroad. And it was emak's idea to take the photo. A year later, emak meninggal dunia.

Sedih but I can't dwelling on the past. Ada orang yang lebih sedih that I should support and make them happy. I have my husband and Amir that I should shower them with love. Play my role as a wife and a mother.

semoga Banglang tenang di sana. I harap dia dah maafkan salah silap, halalkan makan minum. He such a great brother! And I still have another great brother. I'm blessed.

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Belasungkawa

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Lebih kurang pukul 10 tadi, dapat panggilan from my sister, Kakteh



"Kau kenal tak Nurul Huda Jamaluddin.. budak sekolah TKS"

"Hmm..tak ingat lah sape"


"Dia kata dia kenal kau.. pernah ponteng sekolah sama-sama"

"Ohh... nurul!"




"Dia dah meninggal pagi tadi, accident dekat Karak"



Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun. Al-fatihah.


Lebih menyayat hati bila ada one of my friend found a link pasal accident. Nauzubillah min zalik.


Last jumpa arwah, setahun lepas, masa baru sampai LCCT from Bali. Itu pun tak borak panjang.


Tengah hari tadi arwah masih di Hospital Selayang, some of my friends dah pergi ziarah. Her bestfriend, Nadia - since sekolah menengah dapat mandikan arwah. I'm so touched when Sari told me this. True friendship.

Sama-sama sedekahkan Al-fatihah. Arwah memang nice orangnya, semua suka. Banyak pulak berjasa pada Puteri UMNO cawangan Kuala Pilah.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Separa lucu, separa stress

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9.00pm: sedang mengorak langkah ke kamar mandi, Amir yang sedang bermain dalam walker dikesan sedang menghampiri se'mug' coffee di atas side table.. Baru nak bukak mulut say 'stop' tangan Amir lebih pantas daripada halilintar.

Selepas kejadian niat ke kamar mandi diteruskan, bukan untuk mandi tapi ambil kayu mop. Huwaaaa mommy memang suka adhoc.

Luckily it's not hot coffee. Lepas ni kene more cautious. Lupa lah anak dah besar and bergerak pantas. And dah tumbuh gigi too.. *wink* dan baju malam dah senteng, boleh jadi baju siang. Time flies!


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Friday, April 22, 2011

Phew!

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Setelah hampir empat bulan bergelumang dengan proposal..

berjumpa dan bertukar supervisor...

study dan bertukar-tukar tajuk...

berpening-pening...

bertension-tension..







Finally......






Sama-sama doakan dapat saya melanjutkan pelajaran. Amin.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Is he started to say some words?

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Perkatan yang Amir biasa sebut, ba ba ba ba - walaupun mula-mula dulu baba dia selalu perasan Amir panggil dia, technically we know yang dia simply say it.

Kebanyakkan masa Amir agak becok. Tapi tidak masa jumpa orang lain such family members, relatives or friends. Masa jumpa orang lain, muka Amir masam and berkerut. Bukan sebab tak suka, agaknya dia tengah cuba ingat nama orang tu ;p
At home Amir memang bising mulutnya. Masa lapar, bila dah mengantuk or bila main. I guess now dia dah tahu nak express when he wants something by doing something that can attract attention other than crying.

There were few situations where my husband and I were stunning when we heard him saying meaningful words.

Ada satu masa agaknya dia sleepy and emak sedang sibuk makan then pergi basuh tangan, pergi ambil air la etc. Tengah-tengah rengekan tu dia sebut 'mom' few times sambil pandang me and kembang2 kan tangan. Sweet. Kalau tidak pun dia maksudkan mom - emak, tetap sweet.

And this morning I was talking to him masa tengah bersiap-siap. Dia pun membebel jugak. I remember I said 'tak nak sudah' then he said something very much similar to what I have said earlier with the silent 't' and 'su'. And the same intonation. Ada jugak words lain like 'kakak'.

The unforgettable scene; last Sunday. Tengah hari quite warm, agaknya dia pun a bit fussy. Merengek je, emak dan ayah pun malas je nak entertain him. It's still early to feed him, lunch. So emak dan ayah pun berbincang;
'Nak bagi nenen ke nak buat makanan'
Ayah kata 'bagi nenen je la'
Then tiba-tiba Amir kata 'Nenen..'
It was so clear, emak dan ayah ketawa guling-guling. Kenapalah sebut nenen dulu sebutlah 'mommy'. Cet.

Basically I know lambat lagi untuk Amir untuk start bercakap. Maybe cerita kat atas tu kebetulan aje ;p Tapi I'm still happy at least I know he can projects some suku kata yang berlainan.

And definitely it's such an entertainment to us - penat2 balik kerja, anak jadi maharaja lawak.

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Sunday, April 17, 2011

Hectic weekend + Family time

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Tengah hari Sabtu we went to eCurve mengejar Hitz cruiser. Because my brother and I are hunting for Marc by Marc Jacob tags. They currently having some promotions. For details, click here.


MBMJ tag no 5

Then, we off to My Dear warehouse di  No 34, Jln Meranti Jaya 10, Meranti Industrial Park, Puchong. As mentioned in the previous post, kami ni nak mencari stroller for twin untuk Puan Seri Azura. Since I called a few baby centers tapi diorang takde tandem stroller brand My Dear, maka I decided to check with the warehouse which kedai yang ada jual. They said come over to warehouse, they don't have the display item, tengok from catalogue aja. So better study dulu item yang u nak beli from its website. Harga beli dari warehouse murah from retail, maybe plus minus 10% kot or it depends on particular item jugak kot. Say for stroller tu, price shown online is RM489.90 tapi I beli dari warehouse RM351 saje.

High chair En Amir pulak RM119.90 (online), tapi we all beli for RM90. Fair enough.

Ok, lepas selesai semua urusan terus balik rumah because we were expecting guests come over to our apt. Sebab malam tu I have family dinner. Hmmm our first time gathering since my late brother passed away, 7 months ago. Lagi lah teringat kat my brother, selalunya dia lah yang arrange kan gathering.

We had dinner at Istana Bambu restaurant. Click here for directions. A padi-field concept serving life seafood and nusantara cuisine. Food dia memang sedap. 4.2 stars!















Memang terbaik! Kalau tidak, takkan ada yang tersandar tu... ;p

Ok, Sunday nya pulak berehat-rehat di rumah. It was cloudy, bapak dan anak syiok tidur..


Petangnya pula we went to my sis in law's place. Hang out with Ami's family and Amir's cuz.
















Alike? Hehehe

Phew! Siap jugak entry ;p

Saturday, April 16, 2011

MyDear Warehouse

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Today we went to MyDear warehouse at Jalan Meranti Jaya, Puchong. The intention was to buy twin stroller for my bestfriend, Zura.

One good thing about buying items from here, it's cheaper from retail price be it online or at shop. End up we bought baby chair for Amir ;p

Worth the extra miles, save the extra cash.

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

Starz Garden, Sogo

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Now we know where to chill out if baba has to work extra hours!! Yeay!!!

Yesterday was Amir's first LRT ride. Since babysitter ada hal so I have to come back from work early, and baba Amir macam biasa banyak kerja maka emak Amir ambil keputusan nak bawak Amir jalan-jalan. Yup, it was my first time bawak Amir keluar sorang-sorang jugak. So we took LRT to Sogo. Amir macam biasa lah cuba explore semua besi pemegang, tingkap, kerusi yang ada dalam LRT tu. Phew, sebaik emak dah bagi upah awal2 so performance Amir sangat membanggakan.

Dah puas berjalan dekat floor Children, baba masih lagi di office teringat my nieces suka hang out kat Sogo sebab ada play station for kids. So we went to 7th floor to check it out.

It was fun yaw!! Emak mula excited, and it was weekday so tak ramai budak-budak. Ini tempat ana yang punyaaaaa!




Siap ada tempat tidur lagi. Selalunya bapak-bapak yang stay jaga anak sebab mak pergi shopping kan ;p Tapi I don't think bapak-bapak boleh tido kat dalam bilik ni, bukan apa... takut mereka berdengkur dan mengganggu kanak-kanak yang sedang tidur.

Kat sini ada helper, so diorang boleh tolong jaga kanak-kanak 4 tahun ke atas. If younger than 4, someone has to stay and look after your child. Charge - RM6.00 per hour. Bila tinggalkan anak-anak kat sini, you have to fill in the form and write down your 4-digit secret code, so bila nak ambil anak balik they will ask the secret code. Setiap baby and kanak-kanak kena pakai name tag like this..



So many toys! Memang sangat exciting sampaikan kanak-kanak kat luar yang nampak dalam ni mesti rasa terpanggil nak masuk ;p Tapi bila diorang panggil-panggil parents ajak masuk, selalunya parents malas nak bawak masuk hehe

I'm sure Amir had lots of fun there :) Enjoy the pics..


Apehal ni datang dekat taman permainan, kene baring atas sofa je??




Orang sibuk nak main suruh posing.

Suruh posing lagiiiii????? Ggrrrrr..


Ini macam permainan kegemaran Amir je, lama dia dok kusyuk main. Good things about so many toys there, boleh cuba-cuba before beli :) Most of the toys brand Fisher Price.




 Tortoise says 'Please Amir don't eat me'



 Aiyok semua benda nak makan.

Tak enjoy main ni sebab tak boleh berdiri sendiri lagi ;p
Let's play something else Mom..


 Carrrrrr!


 Ececeh macam dah beso sangat..




 Masih lagi interested bermain permainan kegemaran tadi. Hmmm..



And the most exciting.....







Haish time mommy kocik, tak ponah dapek masuk dalam kolam bola ni tau? Dah ado anak sorang ni baru meghaso masuk, itu pun buek-buek nak amek gamba ;p
Kot ternampak tompek pemainan kek shopping mall, tak kan atok ko boghi mommy main, dio suruh balik baco buku.


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